I turned 50 yesterday. I am now the same age the R was when he died. It was a strange feeling. I figured out the date that would be the same number of days that R lived into his 50th year. R lived 119 days into his 51st year. So for me 119 days after […]
How Far Do I Go Into the Abyss?
Tomorrow would have been R’s 52 birthday. I don’t even really remember feeling anything last year. My friends and sister took me out to dinner and we talked about him, but I was still in such a state of numbness that I don’t remember feeling anything. I have read in so many blogs where women’s […]
Godwinks
I highly recommend reading the book, When GOD Winks: How the Power of Coincidence Guides Your Life. I friend gave it to me when I started telling my friends all the weird “coincidences” that were happening after R passed away. I will write about them as I remember them, but I was reminded of one […]
Grief and PMS
I am going to touch on a topic that I haven’t ever heard any widow write about. I’m only 18 months into my journey so maybe it has been discussed at some point, but I’ve never heard anyone broach the subject in any blog I have ever read. PMS- It is bad enough when a […]