My life is changing, and I’m okay with that. I really don’t understand the sense of calm that I experience in my life these days. I guess it really is true that when one of the worst things in your life that can possibly happen to you happens, it changes you. I’m not afraid of […]
International Widows Day
I did a post earlier this year when I turned 50. That is how old R was when he passed away. I figured out how many days R lived into his 51st year. I then figured those same number of days passed my birthday so I was going to look at it that after that […]
Being 50
I turned 50 yesterday. I am now the same age the R was when he died. It was a strange feeling. I figured out the date that would be the same number of days that R lived into his 50th year. R lived 119 days into his 51st year. So for me 119 days after […]
How Far Do I Go Into the Abyss?
Tomorrow would have been R’s 52 birthday. I don’t even really remember feeling anything last year. My friends and sister took me out to dinner and we talked about him, but I was still in such a state of numbness that I don’t remember feeling anything. I have read in so many blogs where women’s […]