My Thanksgiving 2015

Thanksgiving was a mixed bag of emotions, but thank goodness is was filled with more positive emotions than negative.  Grief has a way of showing up at times that I don’t expect.  Those are the times that I hate the most.  So I guess I’ll start with that… Daughter M and I called R’s parents in the late afternoon of Thanksgiving.  They had both been sick.  M hasn’t seen them since the Christmas after R passed away.  That is a long time to go without seeing someone, but since she now lives in NYC and I don’t live close to them- that is just the way it is.  It was a very pleasant phone call, but when we hung up, we looked at each other and started crying.  It was unexpected by me to feel the emotions that I felt- but such is my life now.  It was the emotions that wash over you and you think, “How did I get to this place?”.  I think M and I even asked each other that!!  Dr. T had a bit of melancholy too as he told me it was hard to sit there and enjoy what he knew R was missing.  But as I told him-  that is the reality of our lives.  I hate what has happened in my life, but I now can’t imagine my life without Dr T in it!!!  And,  thank you God,  I am happy!!