In the midst of all the excitement, there is still sadness. I can’t really put in to words what I am feeling. Is it just another way of saying good-bye to R? Is it that I am leaving my job and friends to move and leave the support that I have had these past three years? — I guess it is all of that. It is just a weird feeling.
But I am going to move forward and keep going- and yes- I will look back because I want to look back. I don’t want to move forward and never look back… I had a good past. I know it is hard for some people to see me make this move– they have been vocal about it. But there are many who have done nothing but encourage me. I will forever be grateful for those people.
I will face next Saturday with excitement and happiness- but it will be a strange day. I know when I get on the other side of it that all will be fine!!
I follow One Fit Widow and her post today was about going with the flow… you can’t swim against the flow forever- that is what I plan to do!