I could have written it!

I found a blog that as I read it, I realize her words are my words.  So much of her experience of losing her husband was my experience.  It is a little scary sometimes.  Today as I was reading some of her past posts, I read one from the summer.  I read a comment written to it and realized that it was a comment that I left her—isn’t that weird.  I feel such a connection with this woman whom I have never met and probably never will.  If you want to know many of my thoughts the past 17 months go to  http://ourjourneytoanewnormal.blogspot.com/  and read her words- as I said before– her words are my words, my feelings, my emotions.  She does a much better job of expressing herself than me though!!

Speaking of blogs- I am going to be a guest blogger tomorrow for a group called Hello Grief.  The post won’t be live until 9:00 am tomorrow.  I’ll post the link tomorrow so you can read it. I did not do a good job.  I thought they just wanted quotes to use in their own blog.  But they ended up using several women’s posts for individual blogs.  If I had known I would have written much more and “tried” to do a better job.  It is done anyway so I should just be happy that some of my thoughts are getting out there.  It is a blog on how running helped in my healing.

I am amazed at how many thoughts and emotions run through my mind in any given day.  I am so happy that that feeling of such a heavy heart left me around the end of October of 2012.  There were still days of feeling that horrible heavy heart, but it wasn’t’ a daily occurrence like it had been.

I’m tired tonight.  I have been getting up very early to run with friends in the morning.  I hope to start recounting memories of R, but also of that first year-  what I remember of it.