I am reading a book called What Happens When Women Say Yes to God. I am also part of an online group with some friends from high school, and we have been briefly discussing the book and praying for each other. Of course I haven’t gotten into the study as much as I would have liked to, but it has still been good for me. I was reading today and came across this line today that really made me think–” There is no condemnation from Jesus, only conviction.” That thought is so freeing- isn’t it. That is the true example of unequivocal unconditional love. God does not condemn us. He loves us unconditionally. He only convicts us of our disobedience.
It made me think of myself as a parent. I don’t think my kids felt convicted and not condemned at times. I fear that I had an attitude of condemnation with them too often. And it made me think of their dad. He was the most loving man. He truly did love unconditionally. I am so thankful that I was able to parent with him as long as I did. I have now tried to find his patience in dealing with our kids. He truly had great patience.
I still miss him. I am doing well, but I do feel the void at times much greater than others. I do have someone in my life that I will go ahead and introduce you to. Dr. T. He is a high school friend who I have known for over 30 years. He was friends with R. He is patient and kind like R was. He has helped me so much over the past year. His wife passed away about 2!/2 years before R. We started emailing each other after R died. It then went to infrequent phone calls and then visits. We are going to see where our relationship goes. He very graciously welcomes R into our relationship.
I hope to have another man in my life someday who will be a grandparent with me- I am really looking forward to that. I want someone to grow old with. I think I need them to have the attitude of conviction and not condemnation. I think I have that with Dr. T. Just like I most assuredly had it with R.