Hello!! Thanks for clicking over here. This post is an introduction to my friends and family that may not know that I have a blog. Several times over the course of the past few years, I’ve had people tell me that I should write a blog. Little did they know that I secretly was. There was something about putting my thoughts out into the great dark abyss of the Internet that was very cathartic!!
Many years ago, I wrote a fun blog. The theme was ” a blog about nothing”- a reference to Seinfeld since my family was such Seinfeld fanatics. It was all about our property in Texas and the DIY projects we worked on, meals we prepared as a family, and just general thoughts on my life. When R passed away, I couldn’t bear to write on that blog anymore. It was over. That life was over.
After R’s passing, I started receiving emails from a grief support organization, GriefShare. One day the scripture reference for the email was Deuteronomy 30:19– “This day I call the heavens and the earth as witnesses against you that I have set before you life and death, blessings and curses. Now choose life, so that you and your children may live.” WOW- That scripture changed my life. I put those words on the refrigerator so I would see them every day. They became my mantra. I wanted to show my kids how to move forward after tragedy. I desperately wanted to LIVE. I decided at that point that it was my choice, and I was going to choose LIFE.
Through that scripture, this blog was born. I first wrote to other widows. I hoped that the right woman would find my words and possibly be blessed by what I wrote. Now Choose Life became my therapy. The ability to verbally vomit the vast thoughts and emotions that were the product of my reality onto a page and then hit “publish”, helped me in so many ways.
Things in my life changed quickly, and I found myself living in New Mexico– a new town, a new marriage, a new life. I am by myself much of the time with no friends in the same stage of life here with whom to share the void and the excitement of this new stage. I talk to my mom, sister, daughter and great friends on a very regular basis, but when I hang up, I’m still here alone.
It was in this stillness that I reached out to this blog. I decided last fall to see what I could do with it- see if I could grow it into something more. It has become a great challenge as well as a great creative outlet. Dr. T has been so supportive. He is my official photographer on many occasions!! Now Choose Life has filled a great void that was created going from working full time to being at home full time! I am in the process of doing some research for some ideas that I have for the blog, and that has been extremely fulfilling.
So I welcome you to come along on my journey. It is proving to be a work in progress, and I am learning so much. I feel that it is very rough, but I guess that is still my life- raw and rough at times, yet extremely abundant and fulfilling. There is no formula to the blog. It is simply my impressions on my attempts at living an abundant life. It is a documentation of my Chapter 2. It is a very public display of my endeavor to become a better writer, as well as, a better wife, mother, sister, daughter, and person.
To all of you who have shown me love and support over the past few years- Thank You!! You have made a huge difference in my life.