The beginning

Saturday, August 31, 2013

Today I finally feel ready to start a blog about my experiences of losing a dearly loved husband and living through it.  It has been 16 months since my husband passed away.  The first year was an excruciating journey.  I have been fearful that the second year will be worse-as that is what I have read in many blogs.  So far I am feeling strong and hope to continue.  It is my hope to reach other widows out there and offer encouragement.  There have been many blogs this past year that have encouraged me.  This blog will be me reflecting on the first year, but also my experience of Choosing Life and moving forward as hard as that is.  So I guess I'll start with the name of the blog.  About 2 months after R passed away, I was reading an email that I received from Grief Share.  The scripture that day was from Deuteronomy 30:19  which says 
"This day I call the heavens and the earth as witnesses against you that I have set before you life and death, blessings and curses. Now choose life, so that you and your children may live."  This verse spoke to me in a profound way-  It made reaffirmed to me that my children who were 22 and 20 when they lost their dad, would follow my lead as to how we would proceed with life.  I want them to have full happy lives.  I want to have a full and happy life.  This blog will be how I have clumsily managed to work towards choosing life.  Since I have made it out of that horrible first year, I can look back and recall some of the hard times, some of the blessings , and some of the triumphs.  I can also tell about new situations that I am finding myself in as I maneuver through this 2nd year.
Thanks for joining me!